What am I doing with my life?

Ever take sleeping medication? If you have, you know that swirly, effervescent feeling you get right before you fall asleep. stay awake...

Then you go on Amazon.

Big mistake, now you have next day shipping on a chandelier. Now you bought a robotic cat box that cost you $275. Then the carpet turns into an ocean, starts crashing and bending.

There's a raccoon in your backyard wearing a bikini. 

Now what if you could take those experiences and use it to make art- doesn't matter if it's music, painting, creepy stuffed animals.... 

Imagine the colors and the humor and the weird that would come of it.

That's Ambienoise.

Welcome to my fever dream.

Many people have asked how in the hell did my art get to the point of making weird stuffed animals made of real animals. 

When I was young I was fascinated with animals, science, and taxidermy. But I was always bothered by the fact that you can't touch and physically experience taxidermy.

I first realized skinning and taxidermy might be a road for me to walk down in 2014 when I was teaching veterinary medicine. We had a wet lab which was dissecting rats for anatomy lessons and such. I was in charge of the "master"rat, the teaching aid and demo rat. First step was removing the skin... which for me was quick and easy. And off came a pelt that was perfect and without faults. My fellow instructor was wowed, and suggested I tan the pelt, and that maybe this is the stuff for me. 

Now not all of my skins are from me tanning them, most come pre-tanned and processed. This results in some imperfect pelts - face smooshed, foot fell off, tear in the body- all things that make the pelts unique and special to me. Then I stuff 'em and hug 'em, then prepare them for a trip to your house!

My pelts are sent to me from Wyoming, Utah, and Montana and are ethically sourced- upcycled pelts that wouldn't serve well for much aesthetically- well, for other people maybe! I find them perfect and special in their own way.  That's why I made them huggable, pose-able, loveable (and a few squeak!)

Yes, I do have to sometimes replace parts of these animals, make them a new leg, arm, face... But doesn't that just make them special? It makes them a collectible, experience-able, irreplaceable.